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There is an increase of selfies and self-doubt as the days of summer are now…. Read More. Peruse Instagram these days and you will see many women posting excessive selfies with quotes from enlightened masters as a caption, showing how beautiful and also how spiritual they are, with their perfect yoga body, and somehow always on vacation or in some minimalist home.
This pattern I vaguely bought into as well. I feel that once we travel along far enough in our journey, we begin to discover that true beauty is in fact, mostly internal. There are older women who are strong in themselves and have been through an immense amount of internal transformation and simply Radiate; grey hair, wrinkles, and all. There are also younger women who have not done any inner work and still mainly depend on their beauty in the world and use it as an excuse to be vain, cruel, and self-centered.
Our lower self, insecure and never satisfied, continuously feeds off the energy that this attention gets us. We use this cheap form of power and perpetuate the collective abuse of reptilian-like hypersexualization that is plastered all over mainstream advertising. But when we objectify the female image by looking at it as something we can sexualize and sell, we perpetuate this toxic pattern by using our own bodies against our soul.
I wanted to be seen as something otherworldly, something that was not my messy, human, normal and quite frankly, kind of boring self. Over the course of a couple of years, I became an avatar of my own destruction, a creation based on a fantasy I had on what the spiritual journey looked like and of what others wanted it to look like too.
It became less about my own process but how I could Monetize Spirituality. I even deluded myself into believing that through this curated image I was actually helping people.